Therefore, I advise you, just like myself – just out of respect for your will (and reluctance that anyone suffers too much, they can do this fine here without us). Regularly ask for forgiveness – not from me, not out loud, not by correspondence, but mentally, from the dudes that you turned into boobs, into dead game chips. Even if you think that everything was done correctly, formally apologize to them.
Well, another atoning sacrifice would not hurt. If you hit the money, and you won’t return, it’s already good (by and large). But in general, it would be nice to have something very valuable for you (really subjectively valuable – an idea, a thing, anything) – give it to your bad (in your opinion) hands and watch how it spoils in vain. And understand what you have done and why.